Mostly buddies fanatasize different characters upon them as become unsuccessful than his/her perceived character. And this raises the frustrations and high inferiority complex for unability of achieving that thing and most of the things like that are better when not discussed openly as it reminds the history which again discomforts the personal.
I am simply better say a confused guy who is controversial to himself also. Sometimes I undergone superiority complex and sometimes undergo inferiority complex. I don’t know why this happens. I am quite bit introvert but don’t spend thinking some boring calculations about my friends. I am quite bit out of station than my friends. I think about things I do with my laptop like some technical things like data visualization for a biological application for project of a fifth year guy!! I do not know why this happens. It sometimes spoil friendship as per I always found me popular like a hell when I am busy and also the most neglected guy when I am doing nothing. It’s simply strange.
I like computers as it gives you the power to leave the boundaries of everything. Automation and more precisely the algorithms of automation are the most fascinating thing to me.. I got a 2K IIT rank and also a good rank in AIEEE but I choiced Niser . I do not have a perfect explanation for this but I think lot of hell before coming here.. That’s a different thing.
I lived most of my previous years (from class 4 to class 12) in Ramakrishna Mission Vidyapith Purulia which is residential school and It itself was a small society that let me go through some hard, really hard experiences which shaped and malformed my perceptions totally .It requires a lot of time to return from that state but thanks to my friends.